A way to love.

Sometimes I need to take these moments, half days, full days to just sit and fully be entrenched in G-d and then who G-d calls me out to be. And then it causes me to question whether I am on the track, on the path that G-d has called me too. I recently got involved in Diakonos because it seemed like a good idea, and it seemed like it was on that path G-d has called me too.

But I wasn't sure why I got involved. I just knew I should.

In the Bible several times we see this question of success being posed to Jesus. Mostly by his disciples, i.e., Sons of Zebedee. How do they wind up at the right and left hand of Christ himself? Matt. 20: 21-23
It seems that the message Christ had shared earlier in the passage had been quickly forgotten because in verse 16, Jesus very clearly states what it takes to be first in the Kingdom of Heaven is the road less traveled here on Earth... it's taking last place at everything.

The core of discipleship as I understand Jesus to have taught it- is humility. Not just humility because that's what Jesus said, so we should DO it, but a humility that characterize us.
We see the people we serve as being those who are just like ourselves, maybe better than us. The point of service is not because it's the popular thing to do, because its the right thing to do, because it seems like a good Christian practice... but because we truly see all people the same way G-d sees all of us. And when our vision is transformed this way - we realize, that if we could see one person as we see ourselves, we can start to see everyone that way. Sister Lisa, Brother William, Brother Bruce, etc. they're just like our friends, maybe a little older, but just like them. And the way we serve them is the same way we can serve our friends, serve our parents, our church. It's not just an act but a lifestyle. Our entire life becomes a life of service. It's the attitude of humility that creates a heart of service, a heart of love, devoted to everyone, and that's what can make us a little bit more like Jesus.

Now I get why I was inclined to get involved with Diakonos... my life is in need of a little transformation. This ministry in and of itself can't do that, but it gives me an opportunity to start changing the way I see my world, the way I see people and the way I love.