Surely, I am Always With You

This is the passage that first comes up to my mind when I think about evangelism:

-Matthew 28:19~20-

"Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

To be honest, when I think about Diakonos/evangelism I don't feel qualified enough to be doing God's work. According to the passage above, God has commanded me to "teach them to obey everything that I commanded you"; but, how can I teach someone to obey God's will, when I refuse to follow Him. How can I teach people about Bible, when I don't even understand it fully? All these negative thoughts about myself overwhelm me every Monday.

After three months of Diakonos, I still don't feel confident about myself. However, I am proud of being involved in God's work. Every week, I witness something great about God's Kingdom. One week, one brother showed his tears after we prayed for him. Another week, one sister randomly comes up to us and asks for a prayer. Another week, after we prayed for one brother, he decides to pray FOR US. Couple times, passing-by Christians join us with prayer. Every week, people are willing to share their struggles with total stangers like me.

Every Monday, I feel God's presence hovering over city of Philadelphia. Although some proclaim that they will never believe in God, although some say that our works are not making any differnece here, although some judge us as hypocrites, although some rebuke us for our actions, I still feel God. God has graciously given me a privilege of witnessing his presence in this city.

Yes, I still struggle. I do not know how to start a meaningful conversation with people; I do not know how to bring Gospel into a "Hi, How-are-you-doing?" conversation; I do not know how to effectively pray for people; I do not know what exact Bible passages to speak of. However, before Diakohos, I always pray God that He would just use me; He would speak through my tongue so that words are not mine, but HIS; He would reach out through my heart so that all my works are not done by my compassion, but for HIS passion.

After all, God has promised "surely, I am always with you, to the very end of the age." As long as I believe in this word, I won't stop trying to share Gospel.